Old habits die hard.

Yeah, so I totally ended up binging Friday night. Surprised? I'm not. I haven't done that in a while, but you know what they say. Old habits die hard. Well, I'm never letting that happen again. Stuffing myself doesn't even make me feel good. So I'm done, really. (Wish me luck?)

Fail, fail, fail. It's Monday, is it not? A weigh-in day? Well, I haven't weighed myself. I really don't want to, I know I haven't lost anything. And I don't think I mentioned it, but I use Calorie Counter to keep track of what I eat and how much exercise I do. Ugh, haven't used it in a few days though. I just want to be normal, ya know? Like, eat normally and not have to keep track of every little thing. Hah, this will only last for a few days, no worries. But I just keep thinking, if other people can eat normally and not be fat, why can't I? Ugh, not fair. :(

But on a better note, life...is going pretty good I think. I'm getting my temps soon, and I'm considering switching schools next year. All my friends right now are seniors, and they'll all be gone after this year, so it's not like I have anything to keep me at the shit-hole of the school I currently go to. And a new start would be nice...new people, new guys. ;] (and hopefully and new, skinny!, me?!) Because right now...ugh, I think I have feelings for my ex again. Which I have no right to do, considering I broke up with HIM. I dunno, I'll see him @ school tomorrow and maybe then I'll be able to figure out whether I really like him again (dear god, I hope not!) orrrrr if it just has something to do with the fact that the last time I saw him (also the first time we've hung out since we broke up), I ended up drunk and on top of him...haha, all clothes were on of course. :p But yeah, don't worry 'bout it, I'm just venting. Ignore me haha.

Oh! One last thing...uhhh, 2 followers?! Sweet. That makes me smile. (:

xxx

Banana split anyone?

Today I went shopping. Actually, it was quite the successful trip, I got some super-cute tops and dresses from Rue 21. Loveee that store. (: But you know what's the absolute worst? Shorts shopping. I tried on a few pairs of shorts at Aeropostale, and it was awful. I BARELY fit into a 5/6 and my legs looked short, stumpy, and completely disgusting. The thing is, I have long legs! So wtf, why do I have to be so fat?

However, today on the calorie front, I've done quite good. I'm under my daily limit of 1425 by a little...but I'm currently having the biggest craving for a banana split. And I think we all know that self-control is not at all my strong point. So that's just fabulous. I just wish I didn't have to think every little thing I eat through like this, it's just not fair. I'm so tempted to just binge, because I know I'm not gonna gain any weight from it...but there's a little voice in the back of my head telling me that regardless, it won't help me lose weight either. Hah. That's a laugh. I've NEVER been able to lose any of this weight, even by not eating. See my dilemma? This is why it's so damn easy to slip back into the old binging habits...wish me luck tonight, but I just know I'm going to break. =/

xxx

Hello there.

I'm Naomi. Nice to meet you. First off, I'd like to say that I was completely 100% inspired to write this blog after reading "Too Much On My Plate: The Diary of a Food- and Weight-Obsessed Girl". So, here's to Bree. (:

Now time for my stats:

Age: 16

Height: 5'6"

Weight: 131lbs (on a good day)

Waist: 25.5"

Hips: 33.5"

Thighs: 21"

Oh man. As you can see, my problem areas would be my hips, my huge ass, and my thighs. Absolutely disgusting. My one thigh is almost as big as my waist! Anyone see a problem with that? I sure do... Anyway. My current goal is to get to about 120lbs. This is how much I weighed BEFORE I practically starved myself for 2 weeks to get down to 115lbs. This was 2 summers ago, and probably the worst idea I've ever had. Oh, I got down to 115lbs alright...and then over the next three months, I sky-rocketed to the 130's and have been stuck there ever since. So getting back to my normal weight would be a start, and we'll see what happens from there. I'm ready to conquer this self-esteem battle for once and for all.

I'm new to this whole blogging thing, and I'm trying it because it seems like a good way to get support and whatnot. So if anyone has any advice, that'd be great. (:

xxx